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For I am going to do something in your days that you would not believe, even if you were told. Habakkuk 1:5
I admit. I struggle with the direction my life is taking. There are days I feel like I have no place. Where do I fit? What am I supposed to be doing? Where is all this {the story of my life} going? I haven't a clue. Sure, I have roles...wife, mother, teacher, friend. Yet, there are times I am not sure how it all fits together.
Still I hope.
I hope that the heartache I have endured will bring forth a story of victory. I hope that the mundane tasks of life will one day make a difference. I hope that the place I have lost will be found. I hope that none of it is in vain.
None of it.
The cooking. The dishes. The lesson plans. The sacrifices. The breakings of my heart. The hurt. The loss. The abuse. The daily chores. The small moments. The pit of anxiety. The darkness of depression.
May none of it be for nothing.
A few weeks ago, I was working through the Bible study, Joseph : The Journey to Forgiveness, and came across this quote:
Though he {Joseph} live on the "bottom floor" of prison, somehow he trusted that there was a "second story"-an upper level where God was doing a work. Joseph couldn't understand it, but he chose to believe there was a greater plan.
A second story. Not just the story filled with chores, failed plans, relational angst, separation, and smallness. I need a second story...the story in which God works and brings all things together. I need the story of how He is transforming me through loss, working out the kinks in my heart, and bringing about a better ending to my story than I ever could. There is always a greater story because we have a great God. The daily chores are not just chores. They are character builders. The teaching of children is not just imparting knowledge to them. It is a forming of their hearts while they actually teach me. The raising of children is raising me up to be a better person. The losses only allow space for God to fill me.
So what about you? What is your story? Is it filled with angst? Heartache? The boredom of life? The never-ending tasks of work and family? Look up. Look up to the second story. He's up their writing the greater plan for you and those around you.
2 comments:
This was good! A second story is what I will think of today when Satan comes to make me feel discontented!
Thanks, Jenifer!
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